lousy mood now. I’ve been blur for too long I guess.
and gaining conscience just makes you think too much.
and thinking too much makes you angsty.
and anxiousness causes emotional decomposition.
Yeah, I just gained conscience.
It’s not a bad thing though. Just that it doesn’t look that good now.
It feels like I just got thrown into some pot where you spit in, yeah, and somehow this is a very popular pot where people love to spit in? I’m covered with amylase, and I’m the starch that is being broken down into maltose and dextrin or whatever you call that.
I think we all have to go through that period where you feel like a total shitcake and everyone turns their back on you kind of thing. In my opinion, it’s some emotional process, just like the menstrual cycle.
You have happy times, when actually in the dark, pain is building up for the 28th day.
It makes you hate yourself, and will remind you of your past doings which are what I call damn stupid. And makes you say “Why did I say/did that”
Bugger, I think it’s a really bad time for me to have emotional problems which I don’t usually have right now. PMR is literally 13 days away. I don’t expect myself going in the hall/room with like stupid thoughts in my head.
I don’t solicitude anymore. Painstaking is now for my exams to concern, not bloody emotions.
by the way, fucking, according to dictionaries, not Oxford, is use as a colloquial intensifier. Not necessarily swearing or cursing? I was trying to type in fucking emotions, but forget it. I don’t even use it when I speak. Don’t want to contaminate mengefake my internet profile.
I repeat, stop misreading me. I DON’T CURSE, AND I REALLY, FOR THE 10-HUNDREDTH TIME, HEREBY DARE TO SAY THAT I NEVER MEAN TO SWEAR OR CURSE ANYONE. DON’T BE SO SENSITIVE CAN?
but yeah, emotions sucks at times, but we don’t really appreciate happy moments till it ends, do we?
I often whine a lot during rainy seasons. but when the sun shines, I have the tendency to forget to thank God that I can play football in the evening.
So for this rainy Hari Raya Eid ul-Fitr season, I shall make a stand to stop whining @ other people that are whining about me. And choose to tolerate and understand why are people saying these things.
it’s funny how I use stereotype Hari Raya as Ketupat.
p/s: In any case I offended you whether in the physical, spiritual, or cyberspace, I shall take this opportunity to say this to you “maaf zahir dan batin, dan juga alam siber”.
Vaya con Dios, freshy, the Zach.
