anyhoo.

Updating from a local cyber cafe, near church.

It was Anne and Sze Gions wedding just half an hour ago, I felt lousy so I came here.

Just to fill the time, waiting for Gilbert and Ivan to come, so we could go for the performance done by orphans later.

I realized just now, that when you’re tired, your emotions run dry. Like me now, no smile, no frown, no wrinkles. It’s like I have botox everywhere on my face.

But right now things are getting worse as there are some game competition going on the other side of this cafe, and people are screaming all over the place about a game. [gosh!]

I would like to go to their faces slam their keyboards and say that there’s a reason why “chat” function was created.. But I have not enough guts to do it.

So I will be here listening to gamers clap, shout, scream, yell, laugh, just like what I saw in the zoo.

I hope there won’t be any fights, I don’t want to be an “accident” victim.

It’s already the 13th of December, just half of a month left for 2 oo 8.

And my Christmas ain’t coming so well for me. I don’t have the good’ol feeling of excitement and warmth like every other season.

I’m not sure, I’m still not smiling.

-frshthguyyoumet.

feckless.

6.40 a.m. taken when taking a shower.

Day 2

English paper one was good, I can get a confident 40/40 or 39/40… Paper 2 was also good, questions were easy to do and express.

Science paper 1 was a bit mind-boggling, but just a bit. Still can survive a 30+/40

So I came back for the short 1 hour break, had my lunch, washed my face and went back to battlefield.

Science paper 2… *sigh*

It was easy… I ran through the whole paper with only 1 or 2 problems where I actually used my thinking hat to do it.

BUT. hiaz, as I was walking home, I saw Hoe Kit… He asked me what I put for manipulated variables.

I was like “WHAT?!? What…you mean….Manipulated variables?”

Hoe Kit:”There the second last page one..”

“I don’t recall…” I answered.

Hoe Kit:”Nehhh…The one after the graph ahh~”

Immediately I went “OH MY GOSHHH” that the house in the street we were walking started shaking.

It was ME. being MYSELF. OVER-CONFIDENTLY slap-dashing my paper.

AND I THOUGHT I WAS SO SMART THAT I COULD FINISH A WHOLE PAPER 45 MINUTES BEFORE TIME…

I always thought graph was the last paper.

But really, there was about 2 pages after it. AND I LEFT IT BLANK

What I can do now is hope and pray that the parts which I did can cover up the blank pages…

I feel like suiciding.

I must be the lousiest student you’ve ever got…. Joshua… =’(

hiaz

hiaz

hiaz

hiaz.

hiaz

=(

My dream for my 7A’s is half broken

=(

hiaz

hiaz

hiaz

hiaz

what’s the point of living another day

T………………………………….T

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I HATE MYSELF. ONCE MORE.

I want to cry, but there seem to be no tear coming out…

Good bye, Les Paul….

“And this is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on it’s way I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I’ll stand.”

My 7A’s is on it’s way… I pray.

-frshthidiot?

straight to the eye.

[short post]

skip this, see happier posts below.

be ingenuous, and downright, I want it plainspoken, don’t hide it behind the happy red face.

where did I go wrong again, I don’t mind correcting. just tell me, I will do it if it makes sense.

I have no time to dig it out through thick walls of mediums.

realize how easy it would be? just spell it out. no point at all hiding =) really.

new category called “emo?” so that you can skip all these crappy posts just by reading where I categorized it, if you only like me being happy.

have you ever felt this:

“you felt like you were doing the right thing, you know you are. But people gets displeased, and it makes you feel real stupid”

what do you do about it?

somebody send me a whole album of happy songs, please.

say anything, but asking me to stand still-frshthzch

listening to: Faith Like a Child-Jars of Clay.